What's Up With October?

Has anyone else noticed that this month feels little weird? For a long time now, I’ve been struggling to see ahead to October. Back in June when I channeled the topics for the year’s events, I couldn’t get a topic for the October Live Channeling event. The Keepers gave topics for November and December -- but for October they kept saying, “Ask us later.” The energy for this month was twisty and difficult to predict.

The October Message states clearly that this is an unusual and changeable month:

"The energy this month is difficult to predict. The reason for the difficulty is that a major turning point occurs in September of 2011. As you cross the threshold into October, much of what will happen will depend on the choices that you made in September. The energy for the year 2012 has been on its way into Planet Earth for the last couple of years, but the actual energy of the very year itself arrives in October. While your calendars mark the year beginning in September, the true energetic beginning of the year is in October of 2011..."

When I channeled all the Daily Messages for this month and I saw something I hadn’t seen when I channeled the Monthly Message back in August. As I watched the days unfold, I could see that the entire month moves like a spiral. Every day brings more change, like a curve in the road, so that eventually the energy swirls around on itself. From above, the energy this month looks like a cyclone.

Maybe that cyclone is the reason I’m feeling so strange. Every time I choose a direction, I seem to spin around on myself and get lost all over again.

(This is Hurricane Ivan from 2004, courtesy of hurricane-facts.com)

I finally did get a topic for this month, just a few days ago. And, no surprise, the topic is Change!  More specifically, it's “Change and Leadership: You Are the Ones You’ve Been Waiting For.” Be sure to visit my calendar and sign up if you want to join us. It will be fun to learn more about becoming leaders in the midst of change, especially when we are right in the middle of it!  

Wiped Out, But In a Good Way

The Live Channeling on the Year 2012 took place this week, and it was a doozy! What an amazing year we have ahead of us!

Participants asked wonderful questions, and I remember being surprised by some of the answers. The strange thing about channeling is that I see the answers so clearly when they come through, but once I’ve closed the Records it all slips out of my mind like a dream. So, just like the rest of you, I can’t wait to listen and learn what the Keepers have to say about this much-anticipated year. The recording will become available on my website beginning October 1.
 

Until then, here are a few of the highlights:

- This is the Year of the Wheel, or the Year of Choices. This is the time when we decide what direction humanity will take in the next age.

- Our ability to make choices this year makes us incredibly powerful. The consequences of our choices will happen more immediately and intensely than ever before, for better or worse. (Don’t panic: If you’re paying attention and doing your best to be honest with yourself and others, it will be mostly for the better.)

- Most people will be changing their minds and directions often during the year. Lightworkers are called to have patience and avoid getting caught up in the drama surrounding you.

- The energy of 2012 begin in 2009, so if you’ve been paying attention and doing what you can to heal and wake up, then this year will bring more empowerment and joy. If you have been avoiding anything, this year will make that thing come crashing down on you so you can finally deal with it.

- I also remember that the Keepers addressed movie and media portrayals of the Year 2012, and how those are related to real life dynamics.  Can't wait to be reminded about what they said.. thank goodness this was recorded!

- I remember seeing more clearly how the Mayan Calendar was accurate in predicting this shift, and exactly how those predictions have changed…. But I can’t remember what came through. ARG!  Again, with the recording. 


Another highlight for me was the moment when all the callers said good-bye at the end of the call. I usually have between ten and twenty callers for events. This time there were over 60 people on the line! It was so lovely to hear a cacophony of voices saying farewells and blessings. Thank you to everyone who participated in that channeling event.

And, after channeling the energy of the Akashic Records, the Year 2012, and all those lovely participants -- I was wiped out. So, true to form, I made a huge bowl of very salty popcorn and watched an episode of Glee.

There is something about song-and-dance that enables that blank stare I require after intense experiences. It’s probably not the best way to get grounded, but it sure is fun.

Of course, I could manage that only after lying in the grass outside my office and staring wide-eyed at a nearby tree for at least 30 minutes. I think my neighbors might wonder about me sometimes…..

(No, sadly this is not the view from my office. The trees in Seattle are far more coniferous and prickly, and the sky is far more gray, but I love it anyway.)

Native Family

 

I’ve just returned from a visit with my native family. They are native as in my first people – the ones who raised me and were raised with me. These are the people with whom I built my deepest fears. Fears like, “What if I am not loved? What if I am not good?” They are also the people who taught be to love and be loved. They are the ones with whom I developed my strongest attachments – some healthy, some not so healthy.



Over the years we have all made many mistakes together, and our patterns of behavior fit together like puzzle pieces. My tendency to swallow my words molded itself perfectly around my brother’s childhood bravado; my desperation to be admired and respected grew right alongside the skeptical looks my little sisters gave me when I tried new things. 

No matter what kind of family, every single one of us is molded by the shapes our loved ones took as we grew up together.

 

 

As we navigate our spiritual paths as adults, it can be tempting to imagine that we can think our way out of those childhood limitations.  It can be tempting to expect that we will take our enlightened spirituality into our family visits and somehow make those relationships work perfectly.  But those old puzzle pieces still fit together, so that when I visit, I find I am not myself. I say things I would never usually say. I feel things more strongly than I usually feel. And I struggle to keep my center more than in any other situation in my adult life.

I know I’m not the only one who feels this way. We all know that family relationships can be complicated and confusing. Yet these are the people we keep going back to, because amidst all that confusion there is a deep and profound potential for love. After all, if this is the place we learned our greatest fears, just imagine what could happen if we heal our fears in those very relationships where they started?



Luckily, I ended the trip with a clarifying visit to Grand Teton National Park. There are few places that clear my mind and set my senses soaring as much as the high mountains of the Rockies and Great Basin.

Beautiful!

It's Decision Time Again

Making decisions is one of the most fundamental activities in our lives. Decisions and their consequences are unavoidable. Even when we avoid making a decision, the choice to avoid it is a decision in its own right and carries consequences just like any other decision. There is no escape!

Having choices is part of what defines freedom and gives us a great deal of joy.  I don't know too many people who consciously give up their free will.  (I do know some who unconsciously do, but that's a story for another day.) So why do so many people struggle to make decisions?

We all have our favorite way to deal with decision overload. Mine is procrastination. And I always feel bad about it, and I always thing there must be something wrong with me. (And there probably is, but that is between me and my therapist.)

All of this felt a bit better the other day when I found this article in the New York Times.

It turns out I’m plagued by too many decisions – which I recognize is a luxury of excessive use of free will. (And I really do mean that it’s a luxury to have the opportunity to choose so much of my own circumstances) This phenomenon even has a name, Decision Fatigue. And it’s not just me, and it’s not my fault, and just considering that I could limit the unimportant decisions in order to improve the important ones is really helpful.

After reading the article, I decided to stop visiting the World Wide Web unless I have a specific task to perform there. No more browsing, no more surfing. I think this alone will eliminate dozens if not hundreds of unimportant decisions from my daily roster. And it will free up time to walk barefoot in the grass, sit in meditation, and talk to friends that I treasure dearly but never call or visit anymore!

What will you eliminate? How will you free up your mental space for those important decisions that really matter? I can’t wait to hear about it!

Finish All the Things!

Well, I keep trying to post something about the US economy, but I just can’t find words to express how complicated my feelings are on this issue. So that post can wait for another day. (If you want to think about the economy this week, go read the channeling for this topic!)

Instead, I thought I’d share the image I have hanging in my office this week. 
 

I am very good at starting things, like this blog, and not so good at finishing them. Astrologers tell me that it’s because so much of my natal chart is on fire. The Records tell me it’s because I spend so much time channeling that I don’t track time very well in my everyday life.

But sometimes I think I’m still just running away from homework. I find myself with that old feeling from school. You know the one? That feeling of homework perched weightily on my shoulders, pushing on me when I’m playing, resting, and even when I’m actually working on the homework. I feel guilty, embarrassed, and trapped. It’s heavy-duty mental baggage, and I’ve been trying to shake it since I was about twelve years old.

So I love this image because it is just silly enough, and just triumphant enough, for me to believe that I actually WILL finish all the things!

Dumbledore's Right

Whenever I try to explain why I can’t predict the future using the Akashic Records, I always struggle to explain very clearly how very complex the very idea of the future can be. Luckily, someone else has found an elegant way to express this for me:  

“The consequences of our actions are so complicated, so diverse, that predicting the future is a very difficult business indeed.”

-- Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

The future always appears as a set of possibilities and probabilities. Much can be seen, but nothing can be predicted until the very moment it occurs. This is the only way it can be if we have free will. And, based on absolutely everything I have ever seen in the Akashic Records, we do indeed have free will.

Sometimes I wish someone could predict the future. It doesn’t have to be me. It could be anyone, as long as they could tell me exactly what to expect and how to plan for it. Especially these days when so much is changing and so much is at stake.

But, when I really think about it, I’m grateful the future cannot be predicted. I am glad that what is coming is continually being rewritten according to our choices and intentions. This means I still have the honor of creating an effect in the world around me, and so do you!

 

Akashic Channeler Rescued from Black Hole

This Just In – Jen Eramith was swept into a cyber black hole two weeks ago, and found emerging just this morning. The black hole was created when her website host decided to change their system completely, sucking Jen into a whirlwind of telephone call-center muzak and long, complicated tests of website functionality.

Jen’s mysterious disappearance from the blogosphere left many puzzled. Readers wondered, “Why did she start a blog when she isn’t even blogging? Doesn’t she care anymore?”

While channelings and events continued to appear on her website, Akashic Transformations, Jen herself seemed to have disappeared completely from blog-land.

That changed early this morning when Jen was spotted crawling from the black hole looking bewildered and relieved. She announced that the new website template has been fully integrated, save one last little glitch preventing her from posting the newest audio download to the library.

“That’s OK,” she stated bravely. “This gives people more time to download the special double feature we offered in July – two titles for the price of membership.”

As the new month begins, Jen hopes to stand firm on the new website template, with all systems up and running. The black hole is closing quickly, with website members and the public, alike, enjoying Jen’s channelings more easily than ever.

“Now if only I could get that call-center muzak out of my head,” Jen stated longingly.